~ Hurt But Healing ~
You would think that there’s something that I am doing wrong from all these lost relationships with people I had in my life but no matter what I do, the close friends that I had always ended up leaving me. Heartbroken, in pain for a while, and I always feel like my heart is being tear out of my chest. I value friendships more than anything besides my family for obvious reasons. However, the friendships that I had never seem to look at me even twice to say, ” Eh, she’s not worth it.”
Yes, everyone has their flaws but I have never betrayed a friend… I had never wanted to hurt anyone intentionally but just wanting the best for them. I am a very strict person with my morals like if you break my trust, you would be out of my life faster than the speed of light. Of course, I listen to their reasons first but anyone should be smart enough to know what will break the bonds between two or more people. There is a difference between hurting someone selflessly and hurting someone selfishly. The line between these two are crystal clear unless you can’t see it because of excessive pride, immaturity, unreasonable behavior, etc.
Because of all these bad friendships, I’ve learned one valuable thing in life. This is important to everyone because this is how you will know if you will be okay. You have to be your own best friend first before anything else. It seems like I should had known that but as a teenager or just a human being, we all want to have a crutch that will always support us no matter what. It’s innate for us to all want that. I learned to be independent and it’s one of the most valuable lessons that I learned during my 17 years of life. I know that whenever a friend leaves me, I will be okay because I know what’s good for myself and how to support myself. We all need love but we can’t have it 100% until we learn to love ourselves first to love others. Take care of yourself so you will know how to take care of others.
I was hurt but now I’m healing. I will each time.
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